Shifting my focus

Last week I talked about being stuck, well I'm still stuck so I've decided to shift my focus.  I find myself hyper focused on my number due to my fear of going back to 306lbs.  I was so unhappy then, I was so different then, I love who I am now and I never want to go back.  When the scale goes up and down, I feel like I'm so discombobulated and that I can't get on track or feel good about myself.  I've decided I'm in control, not the scale, so for the next two weeks I will be focusing on NSV's (Non-Scale Victories).  This requires me to step away from the scale as I'm unable to let the number go and enjoy my NSV's.

Some of my NSV's will be to log my calories diligently, drink more water, work out 5 days, etc.  I'm both excited and nervous to change focus.  Worried that the number will somehow go up and I don't know where that will put me mentally, but excited because I feel really successful and proud of my NSV's.  In weight, I'm still around that 50-55 lbs weight loss mark.   It doesn't seem like much anymore with being at this for so long.  While my journey start back in July of 2009, I started getting serious and seeing the weight lost in the past 18 months.  The past 6 months have been up and down. With it feeling like I’ve been at this forever, wish I was more in the 75 to 100 lb range for weight loss.  However when I look at my NSV's, I see a different picture.  I guess you could say in that aspect, I feel like I’m 70% there.   I love typing that J

The 5K with the PriorFatPack was great yesterday.  They are seriously an amazing group of people.  How can you not be empowered when surrounded by them!  They inspire me and motivate me to continue to be Unstoppable Mariah.  While I didn't make the time I really wanted, I did have a PB (personal best) and for that I'm proud.  As my friend Ann told the PriorFatPack Sunday night, we are all faster than someone sitting on their couch.  I'm really confident I'll get to where I want with jogging.  I used to be afraid that I couldn't, now I know I will.  My current goal is to be able to do the TC 5K on October 1st in under 40 minutes.  My current PB for an event is 46:42.  NSV number 1!  I do have to give a shout out to my hubby Paul.  He hasn't been running or training very much and yet he kicked BUTT!  Seriously AWESOME, he completed the 5K in . . . . 33:05!  Yes, he is a runner, he's going to be doing the TC 10K on Oct 1^st with aspirations of completing a full marathon one day.  One of the best things about our new healthy lifestyles is that after 10 years of marriage, we are still growing together, and falling more in love. Cheesy I know, but it’s really true.  He loves when I’m confident and willing to take new challenges on.  I love it when he finds such passion and his discipline in training (like doing P90X- Crazy).  Together we help support each other when we fall back on old ways and encourage each other to keep pushing forward.

Another NSV I'd like to share with you today, is my current event schedule for 2011.  I was so proud and excited to see this once I had it all written down in one place.  I kinda amazed myself.  There is an additional one I'm thinking about doing on July 20th as well.  I just signed up for the YWCA Tri today.  This means 5 Tri's this year . . . . Holy BATMAN that’s so cool.  I’m in the 250’s a still rock’n my body! 

1/30/2011- Celebrate the Lakes 5K
3.1 miles=  52:58 minutes

4/10/2011- Indoor Tri Family
10 minute swim= .18 miles, 30 minute bike= 4.44 miles, 30 minutes jog= 2 miles

4/30/2011- Pro Fitness Indoor Outdoor Tri
500 yard swim=14:45, 20K bike= 1:06:45, 5K jog= 59:38

5/8/2011- Race for a Cure 5K
3.1 mile jog= 47:35 minutes, 3.1 mile walk 62:00

5/30/2011- Challenge Minds and Hearts 5K
3.1 mile jog- 46:42 minutes

6/12/2011- Trinona= .25 mile swim, 11 mile bike, 5k jog    
My Goal Times are 15 minute swim, T1- 5 minutes, 50 minute bike, T2- 2 minutes, 45 minute run= Total 1:57

6/25/2011- Go Commando= 5K with 10 obstacles    
My Goal Time, none, I’m just looking to survive!

7/10/2011- Trek= .5 mile swim, 12 mile bike, 5k jog    
My Goal Times are 30 minute swim, T1- 5 minutes, 55 minute bike, T2- 2 minutes, 45 minute run= Total 2:17

7/30/2011- Cancer 5K= 3.1 mile jog    
My Goal Time is 43 minutes

8/14/2011- YWCA Tri= 500 yard swim, 15.5 mile bike, 5K jog    
My Goal Time=TBD

9/25/2011- Tentative- Duathlon = 2 mile jog, 33K bike, 2 mile jog    
My Goal Time=TBD

10/1/2011- TC 5K= 3.1 mile jog    
My Goal Time= UNDER 40!

Unstoppable "Rock'n the NSV" Mariah