Dancing my way to health

My healthiness journey is like a dance.  Two steps forward, one step back, a step to the side, one forward, one step back, a step to the other side, and it goes on and on and on.  I stubble a little, darn it, I even fall down sometimes.  Regardless of this, I keep dancing.  Last night I realized that being Unstoppable Mariah doesn’t mean I don’t take step backwards, it means I don’t give up.

Food choices have been a battle for me the past few weeks and I’m ready to overcome this.  I am starting back with logging my food, I haven’t been doing it.  I’m frustrated with myself.  I know logging food works but I haven’t been doing it.  It’s hard without being able to work out because working out was such an incentive for eating better.  I didn’t want to eat bad because I saw how hard I had to work to burn those calories.  One would think because I’m not burning those calories, it would make even more sense to eat better, but I have been bucking it.

Last night, I quietly reflected by I’m not doing the things I know work.  Why am I resistant to doing it?  I’m scared.   I love love love blogging, but it’s hard too.  It’s hard to be open and honest for the world to see me so vulnerable.  It’s part of what I need to do to make this work for me and it holds me accountable, but it’s scary.  I’m scared to fail, I’m scared to succeed.  Sounds a tad bite crazy, but it’s so true.  When you know better, you have an obligation to do better.  I know better, I’m capable of it.  I need to get over being scared and realize that I’m always going to be scared and it’s a good thing to have those fears.  It keeps you on your toes and pushes you to grow.  I will learn to embrace and overcome my fears because that’s what being Unstoppable is all about.

Unstoppable “getting my dance on” Mariah