My healthiness journey is like a dance. Two steps forward, one step back, a step to the side, one forward, one step back, a step to the other side, and it goes on and on and on. I stubble a little, darn it, I even fall down sometimes. Regardless of this, I keep dancing. Last night I realized that being Unstoppable Mariah doesn’t mean I don’t take step backwards, it means I don’t give up.
Food choices have been a battle for me the past few weeks and I’m ready to overcome this. I am starting back with logging my food, I haven’t been doing it. I’m frustrated with myself. I know logging food works but I haven’t been doing it. It’s hard without being able to work out because working out was such an incentive for eating better. I didn’t want to eat bad because I saw how hard I had to work to burn those calories. One would think because I’m not burning those calories, it would make even more sense to eat better, but I have been bucking it.
Last night, I quietly reflected by I’m not doing the things I know work. Why am I resistant to doing it? I’m scared. I love love love blogging, but it’s hard too. It’s hard to be open and honest for the world to see me so vulnerable. It’s part of what I need to do to make this work for me and it holds me accountable, but it’s scary. I’m scared to fail, I’m scared to succeed. Sounds a tad bite crazy, but it’s so true. When you know better, you have an obligation to do better. I know better, I’m capable of it. I need to get over being scared and realize that I’m always going to be scared and it’s a good thing to have those fears. It keeps you on your toes and pushes you to grow. I will learn to embrace and overcome my fears because that’s what being Unstoppable is all about.
Unstoppable “getting my dance on” Mariah