Thursday, July 28, 2011

Dancing my way to health

My healthiness journey is like a dance.  Two steps forward, one step back, a step to the side, one forward, one step back, a step to the other side, and it goes on and on and on.  I stubble a little, darn it, I even fall down sometimes.  Regardless of this, I keep dancing.  Last night I realized that being Unstoppable Mariah doesn’t mean I don’t take step backwards, it means I don’t give up.

Food choices have been a battle for me the past few weeks and I’m ready to overcome this.  I am starting back with logging my food, I haven’t been doing it.  I’m frustrated with myself.  I know logging food works but I haven’t been doing it.  It’s hard without being able to work out because working out was such an incentive for eating better.  I didn’t want to eat bad because I saw how hard I had to work to burn those calories.  One would think because I’m not burning those calories, it would make even more sense to eat better, but I have been bucking it.

Last night, I quietly reflected by I’m not doing the things I know work.  Why am I resistant to doing it?  I’m scared.   I love love love blogging, but it’s hard too.  It’s hard to be open and honest for the world to see me so vulnerable.  It’s part of what I need to do to make this work for me and it holds me accountable, but it’s scary.  I’m scared to fail, I’m scared to succeed.  Sounds a tad bite crazy, but it’s so true.  When you know better, you have an obligation to do better.  I know better, I’m capable of it.  I need to get over being scared and realize that I’m always going to be scared and it’s a good thing to have those fears.  It keeps you on your toes and pushes you to grow.  I will learn to embrace and overcome my fears because that’s what being Unstoppable is all about.

Unstoppable “getting my dance on” Mariah


  1. Why is it that were are always "scared"? I have these same feelings at times. It is time to let the fears of failing or even succeeding go. Surely we can find something else out there to scare us!!

  2. Hi Mariah,

    In the words of David (8yrs old), "You can't be BRAVE without being a little bit SCARED."

    You are the Brave and Unstobbable Mariah! I can wait to see who she is when she gets over this little hill in the journey.

    :) Heather