Whooo hoooo, I did it, I made it, I'm still ALIVE. I ventured outside for my first run out in the cold MN winter. With windchill it was below 0, BELOW 0!!! It was so cool both figuratively and literally. I actually enjoyed myself a little bit. My lungs are still recovering because they burned in the cool air. It's almost 90 minutes later and my chest still hurts some. On Tuesday I'll bundle up a scarf around my neck tighter. I'm ready to keep plugging away and getting used to running outside in the cold. I'm so proud of myself because I overcame the fact I really didn't want to go today. I just told myself it was less then 30 minutes out of my day and I just needed to suck it up. Change requires commitment and I'm committed to change.
Paul and I did our Sunday night routine in preparing for the week and getting our meals in line. This week was much easier then last week. I think we are getting the hang of it. This week it didn't seem like such a chore. I think after realizing how much it helped us be successful I have a different view of it.
I start classes again tomorrow night. I'm always get the before school jitters. For fellow people struggling with their weight, they understand some of the feelings I have before meeting new people. I walk into a room full of strangers and often feel like all they see is my extra weight and not the person I really am. My inner voice tells me, why would people like you, your fat. I'm working hard to change that inner voice to be a positive influence instead being so negative. Tomorrow night, I'm going to work on being the confident person I know that hides underneath those fears. I will remind myself that I'm a loving, caring, funny individual regardless of my weight.
Unstoppable FREEZING Mariah
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